Claire Holt 'Struggled' with Identity Outside of Acting After Becoming a Mom: 'Definitely Scary'

Andrew Joblon and Claire Holt with daughter Elle.Photo: Andrew Joblon/InstagramClaire Holtis opening up about her initial hardships when stepping into her role as a mom.TheVampire Diariesactress, 33, covers the most recent issue ofOcean Drivemagazine, where she discusses her experience with motherhood and how it has helped to shape her identity.Holt, who is mom to daughter Elle, 1, and son James, 2, with husband Andrew Joblon, explains that before she had children, she only knew herself as an actress.

Claire Holt Is Pregnant After Heartbreaking Miscarriage: 'You Never Forget the Deep Pain of Loss'

Photo: Claire Holt/Instagram Months aftersuffering a miscarriage,Claire Holtannounced on Instagram Thursday that she’s expecting. Reflecting on her miscarriage,The Originalsactress said, “You never forget the deep pain of loss. It dims with time but it informs many of your experiences.” “I want to take a moment to acknowledge all those struggling with miscarriage, infertility or any of the difficulties that come with bringing new life into the world.” “I know these announcements can hurt.

Claire Holt Is Pregnant! Actress Debuts Bump at Cannes, Reveals She's Expecting Baby No. 3

Claire Holt with her kids.Photo: Claire Holt/Instagram Claire Holtis adding another little one to her family! Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories. Next, she shared a photo of Joblon and Elle, calling herself “the luckiest” that she had her husband “handling biz at home,” joking, “Elle is thrilled (duh).

Claire Holt Recalls the 'Unbelievably Painful' Moment of 'Torture' During the Birth of Her Son

Photo: Claire Holt Instagram Claire Holtis getting real about her birth story. The actress, 31, opened up on Thursday’s episode ofDr. Berlin’s Informed Pregnancy Podcast—just over three months after she gave birth to her first child, sonJames— of how a balloon was used to induce her labor, which Holt remembers as nothing short of “torture.” AfterThe Originalsstar arrived at the hospital alongside her husband, real-estate executiveAndrew Joblon, doctors opted to use a Foley balloon to place pressure on her cervix and increase her dilation timeline.

Claire Holt Reveals She 'Definitely' Experienced the Baby 'Blues' After Welcoming Son James

Claire Holt.Photo: Andrew Joblon Instagram Claire Holtmay be hoping to one day have enough kids to field a baseball team, but the transition into first-time motherhood was no easy feat for the star. “[Adjusting to parenthood is] nothing like I ever imagined and I thought I was a giant failure for the first month, for sure,” she said on Thursday’s episode of theInformed Pregnancy Podcastwith Dr. Elliot Berlin. “I don’t think Ihad postpartum depression inany way, but I definitely had the blues and I definitely felt like I was doing everything wrong,” she admits.