Crystal Hefner Reveals She Never Signed an NDA During Her Relationship with Hugh (Exclusive)

Crystal Hefneris continuing to open up about her relationship withHugh Hefner.

“I don’t know why we felt we had to keep Hef’s secrets for so long,” Crystal, who just released her bombshell memoir,Only Say Good Things: Surviving Playboy and Finding Myself, says in the clip.

Crystal —who previously told PEOPLEthat the Playboy lifestyle “caused people trauma” — also discusses with Hall howGirls Next DooralumKendra Wilkinsonwas able to recognize what she’d been through.

“[She realized] it affected her more than she thought it did,” Crystal says. “It’s hard.”

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Crystal goes on to say that it took her “awhile” to recognize the transactional nature of her relationship with Hugh,who died at 91 in 2017.

“I was in therapy for five years,” she says. “I was quiet. I didn’t really speak to anyone about it, and then when I realized things were affecting me more than I thought they did, I’m like, ‘I need to talk about this. I need to finally tell the truth.'”

“I’m like, we need to get together and do an anti-Girls Next Door,” she previously told PEOPLE. “Maybe one day we’ll get along. We shared a unique experience together.”

“I’m speaking out now for the first time about Hef because I feel compelled to speak on behalf of someone I love, who is no longer here to speak for himself,” she said. “If you want to talk about exploitation, this is exactly what these women have done with Hef."

Crystal’s episode ofTamron Hallairs on Feb. 5.

source: people.com