Christine Brown Vows to 'Always' Honor Garrison as She Struggles with 'Difficult Balance' of 'Embracing Life' and Grieving

Christine Brown (left) and Garrison Brown.Photo:TLC; Janelle Brown/ Instagram

TLC; Janelle Brown/ Instagram

Christine Brownis getting candid about grievingGarrison Brownin the weeks followinghis death.

In an Instagram post on Sunday, theSister Wivesstar, 51, demonstrated one of the many ways she’s kept Garrison close to her heart since hedied suddenly at age 25.

“I made Garrison’s favorite breakfast today (tinted green, obviously)” shewrote in the St. Patrick’s Day post, which featured three slides of her kitchen set up and ingredients for the tapioca pudding. “We’re always going to remember and honor Garrison, no matter what life throws at us daily.”

Continuing, Christine admitted, “It’s such a difficult balance embracing life and daily routines like celebrating holidays and working while grieving. So, hey, I made his favorite for St. Patrick’s Day!”

The TLC star also added the hashtags “#mocktapiocapudding #breakfast #greenfood #stpatricksday #remember”

Garrison, the son of Christine’s exKody BrownandJanelle Brown, wasfound deadin his Flagstaff, Arizona home on March 5. Lieutenant Charles M. Hernandez II of the Flagstaff Police Department told PEOPLE that officers responded to a report of a death inside a home and confirmed that Garrison’s brotherGabriel, 22, had “discovered Mr. Brown deceased” in an apparent suicide.

“At this time there is not any indication of foul play, and Detectives from the Criminal Investigations Division are investigating,” Lt. Hernandez’s statement continued.

Shortly after the news, Janelle, 54, and Kody, 55, shareda statementtoInstagramconfirming the death of their son.

“Kody and I are deeply saddened to announce the loss of our beautiful boy Robert Garrison Brown, He was a bright spot in the lives of all who knew him,” she captioned a series of photos of her son. “His loss will leave such a big hole in our lives that it takes our breath away. We ask that you please respect our privacy and join us in honoring his memory.” (Kody posted the same statement onhis own Instagram page.)

In a statement to PEOPLE at the time, TLC shared: “We are devastated to hear of the tragic loss of Garrison Brown. We extend our deepest sympathies and heartfelt condolences to the Brown family at this difficult time.”

Garrison Brown.Robert Brown/ Instagram

Robert Brown/ Instagram

Since then, Christine has turned to social media onseveral occasionsto pay tribute to Garrison.

Three days later, Christineposted a new carousel of photosof Garrison andwrote in the caption, “Every photo with Garrison in it is now infinitely more important than ever before. I am scrambling for just another glimpse of such an incredible man, brother, son…#alwaysbemissed #missyou #notenough.”

Most recently, on Thursday, the TLC starshared more memories with Garrisonin a video on Instagram. “I’ve been scanning all my 35 mm camera film and found some gold mines! He truly blessed our lives. #alwaysmissingyou #tellyourstory #filmnegative” shewrote beside the clip.

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Sister Wivesfans were first introduced Garrison on the TLC show, which documented the life of his family, including siblingsMaddie, 28;Savanah, 19;Logan, 29;Hunter, 27, and Gabe, all of whom are Janelle’s children with Kody. Kody also shares12 more childrenwith his former and present sister wives.

Before Garrison’s death, he and his brother Gabe had a strained relationship with their father Kody following the COVID-19 pandemic. However, on last year’sSister Wives Special: Look Back, Where We Startedspecial, Janelle revealed that her ex did eventually “have somewhat of a relationship with Garrison” but that there was overall “no reconciliation.”

source: people.com